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The Auction

I remember this one time i went to an auction; scratch that, i was in an auction. There is a difference, you know. The former implies i planned to go and dressed up for it, the latter just lays it bare; i was the commodity, the piece, the junk being tagged and put up on the stand for the highest bidder to pick.

So what is a common girl’s worth?
What amount is enough for one lost from birth?
One that has known nothing but sinister stares
From ministers and mayors,
Yea, and from naysayers too.
what is such a person worth?

I spent most of my life blindfolded or in dark rooms, nibbling food from floors like chicken; only that it was mostly rotten and conjured up with diarrheal remains. Are you cringing? Is it unimaginable, surreal, disgusting? Is it in bad taste for 2013’s first blog post? Such is life. Some of us are dug from pits so deep and dark, so scary and lonesome… but guess what, gold and diamonds come from such depths too. 🙂

Dressed in a beautiful garment,
They paraded me on a platform of cement;
“Too skinny!” came the retorts and laments
“Ugly!” the comments took a dangerous plummet
but there i stood, with vacant eyes
No tears, no fear and no- it isn’t that my heart is of ice
After years and years of nothing but pain and suffering
You learn to throw it all away, to stop dreaming;
It kills you inside, but keeps you alive an extra day.

They were all there, the women in silk and purple linen, the men in corduroy pants and leather belts, the little girls in pretty dresses and the boys with chubby faces. They all looked, frowned, shouted out petty bid prices and laughed loudly. The air was pungent with pride, scorn and vanity but only for a while…

“I will take the girl” came the voice,
“Infact, i will have them all, they are my choice.”
Hush. Silence. Not an ounce of noise.
I look up, expecting nothing, really.
Perhaps a man with a Tower-of-Babel sized ego
Pretending to be so nice, we could be amigos

But my eyes behold a sight like no other. I see no man standing before me, no, i see life. I see life my friends. I see healing and a second chance. I see Jesus. I see life everlasting.
It is true what they say,
The train that derails one’s hopes and dreams
Is the very one that delivers them
Where they were needed to be in the first place.

True, sin enslaves and blinds, corrupts and drains us. Then it sets us up for sale at throw away prices, lies to us that we are plain and worthless… and done for. But Christ chases us, He runs after us, yes, He paid the highest price at the auction, He gave His life. HIS LIFE. Not for show (i think there are many (vain) ways of showing off, He would have picked any one) but for love. There is nothing more intimate. Nothing.

I stepped off the cement platform at the auction
And into an eternity of concrete love and life;
I left the mediocre, the hollow, the empty
And let Him fill this shell with Himself.
Life began that day,
When i woke up and showed up
At my last auction.

Christ is waiting at your auction today, will you show up?

 
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Posted by on January 18, 2013 in Uncategorized

 

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The HA! Poem

When i say HA! I am laughing at the enemy,
HA! Laughing at all those lies he said to me,
HA! Booing him for thinking i’d never be,
The girl who for Jesus gets on her knees;
So HAHAHA! Shame on the enemy!

When I say HA! I mean HAlleluya
For i am so blest, my cup is full, yea!
And if hear this i bet you’ll say ‘true that!’
For my life is renewed, made fresh as the new year;
So HAHAHA! HAlleluya!

When i say HA! I mean How Great Thou Art
To the one Savior who’s in my heart,
Same Jesus who gives us all a fresh start 🙂
If you know this is true just shout ‘What?!’
As i say HAHAHA, How Great Thou Art!

When i say HA! I mean i am so HAppy,
No longer gloomy, grumpy, even crappy
See my life has been hard, stormy, even bumpy,
But journeying with Jesus is such a fun thing 🙂
So HAHAHA, I am so happy!

When i say HA!I mean HAllowed be God’s name,
Since He came, nothing that was has been the same
He came to earth, died for me and carried my shame
Took my misdeeds so lame
So let Him take all the glory and fame
As i say HAHAHA, HAllowed be God’s name!

When i say HA! I mean How can i serve you Lord?
You see, i am just a man, a mere dot,
A girl you’ve chosen to love, my life you decided to sort
See my being you bought even before freedom i sought
Oh the thought that you promised to leave me not!
So HAHAHA, How can i serve you lORD?

When i say HA! I mean you can HAve your way
For I have tried my own only to stray
So I will do what you say
This and every other day
Oh help me Lord I pray
As i say HAHAHA, you can HAve your way!

When i say HA! I mean its gong to HAppen
Nay, not all of a sudden
But it will, see it did for Daniel
So will it for us who are heavy laden
One day our shackles will be no more even our burdens
So believe as i say HAHAHA, its going to HAppen!

When i say HA!
I mean exactly that…
HArp in my hand,
Heaven in my Heart,
HA! It is my time to laugh!

Nehemiah 8:10
“…for the joy of the Lord is your Strength…”

😀 😀 😀 😀 😀

 
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Posted by on November 8, 2011 in Uncategorized

 

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Why Evil Will Never Stop

…until we all do.

Flashback: Primary school. Late nights finishing up homework, early mornings reading ahead of the teacher; hands raised to ask and answer questions in class, long lines outside the staffroom to seek clarifications at tea or lunch breaks… and when at last we sat those National Examinations, it paid off for each person, one way or the other. High school bore more responsibilities, more opportunities, more freedom of choice. Four years which also played out differently for us all, more like all those instruments at an orchestra, a few featured prominently, but everyone, low or high grades, carried just as much weight. Stars shine when the sky grows dark.

Fast Forward: Present day. I’ve been on (and off) campus for a while now, and like everyone else, I am not blind to all the evil that is. Take for example, a Med student who comes to campus fresh and ready to save the world, just as the script read in his childhood, ‘When I grow up, I want to be…

A few weeks into campus, our friend falls behind in his academic pursuits, he’s been bumming and partying for overly long. So he takes on that habit called dubbing assignments and taking short notes into the exam room. If he is lucky, he gets away with it for all six years or suffers (petty) punishment once or twice over that entire period. Sometimes, sadly, he earns himself first class honors and goes ahead to be your private doctor of choice and mine too…even the president’s!

But this isn’t about the Med Student only, think about the engineer, the accountant, the architect, the computer scientist, think about you. So eventually, people die because someone did not pay attention in class, the buildings collapse, the roads, railways and runways are super faulty, chemical plants kill millions, companies close down, nations fall into debt…you get the picture.

Grades are important, good grades even better, honest grades absolutely perfect. My point is we need to pursue a standard of excellence in all that we set out to do. Degree ni Harambee? Really? See where that has taken us as a nation, as individuals! No offense, but I know we can do better than this. Honesty pays off. Always.

Because campus will be over one day soon and we all will have to prove our worth, long after the Honors are shelved, may honest character back up all that our papers say about us…and public shame befall us otherwise.

 
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Posted by on August 30, 2011 in Uncategorized

 

TICK. TOCK. TICK. TOCK. TICK.

And then time stops
And hope halts
And the tears can only drop.

And my strongest point
Becomes my weakest joint
And this heart grows faint
Painted and tainted by pain
Hated on and rated in disdain Read the rest of this entry »

 
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Posted by on March 3, 2011 in Uncategorized

 
 
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